Death!!

Covered in darkness...
Icy hands on my shoulder...
A Beautifull young woman...
Death, I fear it not...

Lies!!!

There is a meaning or so I'm told
For the story of my life unfold

I cannot grasp in the realms of logic
Why these puppeteers pull along
But, there must be a reason ...
For why on earth would this be without?

It's about respect, She says ... respect
From my voyeuristic musing of the world
Society, meaning, lies, deceit
I realise ... life isn't worth just that

Wondering what awaits me afar
This legacy of time, but another lie
There must be a method without ...
Without pain, quick & worthy.

Humanistic nature graps ease
Then, why not the easiest path
The path to end, the abrupt peace
Irony rampant through lies & deceit

She said she'd live the lie to its fullest
Admission of the lie of life she claimed
You submit to the lie, live on but ...
Don't force me to serve your deceit.

Let me go ...
Give me peace.

Deadly Illusions

Silence builds up, lasting forever
Inside of me, memory neurons twitch
Slowly released, fabric of greed
Nothing makes sense, no one believes

Shaking, shuddering, violence held back
Racing, running, away from the past
Eyes unblinded, seeing untold truths
Negative emotions pervade within, through

I feel distracted, not lost, but found
Rescued by no one, only myself
The tow rope, the floaty, the life line cast out
I threw them and jumped, belief without doubt

Walls closing in, illusionary visions
Liquid distortion, tears from your eyes
Exhaling, unconfidence, your only best friend
Living in the mirror, but more so in your head

I have tasted your loss, and reveled in it
I have bested your best, and gloated about it
I have never lost to you, and sometimes I wish
I wasn't so arrogant, so right, so complete

Cocaine diaries, marijuana mysteries
Drugs polluting your body, only they feel right
Unreasonable dictions, restless behavior
I'm gone, only temporary, I'll be here tomorrow